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2/1/06 07:15 am

i miss eyesdevoid
do you mind if i go back? i don't like it here anymore

1/29/06 08:13 am

nightmares
and panic
got the best
of me
last night

and now
i'm just
sitting here
naked
watching my fingers type
words
quickl.y

i had to
kill tie yesterday
she was sick
and in pain
and wasn't going to get better
she was old
very old
so
i took her in my hands
and
covered her mouth and nose
until
she stopped
twitching
i cried as i waited
for my pet's sweet heart
to stop
beating

the past few days
are a blur
i thought i finally had some kind of control over my drinking
but
i don't

and even
when you're far from me
i still hurt you
when
i drink

i
hurt me
when
i
drink
i just can't
refuse
the sweet burn

i think
i've dialed your number
over a hundred times
in the past two days

no answer
no answer
noanswer

one step forward five steps back
my life
is a game
of snakes and
ladders

1/23/06 03:03 am

i'm over crying for tonight
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it felt good though
i just wish it wasn't always
for the same reasons

1/23/06 02:31 am - LIVE JOURNAL IS A CULT

while all six of us were dressed up as zombies on stage at the bloor cinema, brandon leans over and says to me "oh my god, we're going to be so famous on livejournal after this"

1/22/06 09:55 pm

Care Bear Countdown, 4, 3, 2, 1

Who's that comin' from somewhere up in the sky?

Moving fast and bright as a firefly

Just when you think the trouble's gonna pounce

Who's gonna be there when it really counts?

Do the Care Bear Countdown

And send a wish out through the air

Just do the Care Bear Countdown

When you need them they'll be there

Don't be afraid when trouble's brewin' in your heart

If you can dream just send a wish out in the dark

And do the Care Bear's Countdown

5, 4, 3, 2, 1

1/22/06 09:00 pm

I'm a pretty normal girl except for one thing: I'm sexually attracted to zombies.

When I was a kid I loved to watch horror films that featured them. As a teen I started to masturbate watching zombie flicks. I fantasize about having sex with zombies while trying not to get bitten, but eventually I end up getting devoured. I also fantasize about getting gang banged by a group of zombies who then rip me apart and eat me.

Is this a form of necrophilia? Are there any other people out there with the same fetish?

Concentrating on Rotting People Sexually Exciting

1/20/06 08:57 pm - last night was the prettiest i've ever looked

( mmm, fleshy )

1/16/06 09:43 am

last night i had a dream that a tarantula spun a web in my shoe
i put my shoes on and didn't realize it was there until it bit me
the rest of my dream i spent screaming uncontrollably

what did you dream last night?

1/15/06 07:58 pm

i've been wanting to wrap myself in black electrical tape for some time now.

( another bathroom scene )

1/15/06 02:33 am - sweet things

playing connect the dots with beauty marks; making love on e; kisses in my sleep; making grocery shopping fun; milkshakes (and what happens after); messages on foggy mirrors; picking out white hairs; cleaning up my puke (because i drank too much); those lips; staying in PJ's all day; strawberry-vanilla; back scratches; head scratches; painting toe nails; being able to say practically anything; new york adventures; calming me down; saying "i'm proud of you"; getting tips from martha stewart; "no crying in my bed"; morning breath; edamame; stripes; sleeping naked; play fights; being myself; you.

♥

1/15/06 12:06 am

new - my hot nerd glahahasses
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things to do with my first paycheck
1) pay mother back
2) get legs and crotch waxed
3) take boyfriend out for sushi
4) treat simon to _____________
5) buy a new (smaller) labret stud
6) buy new jeans
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i've been wearing these everyday since september
7) buy a new poofy dress
8) pay cell phone bills
9) extend on tattoo i got when i was sixteen
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10) buy a vibrator
11) buy my own pot

1/13/06 08:37 pm - who knew something so small could love so big

1/11/06 11:11 am

I DON’T KNOW HOW TO GET MY LIFE STARTED!!!!

1/9/06 09:09 pm - i figure if i love talking about me, you must love talking about you

01. Name:
02. Birthday:
03. Place of residence:
04. What makes you happy:
05. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
06. Do you read my LJ:
07. If you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
08. An interesting fact about you:
09. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. Favorite place to be:
11. Favorite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:

RECOMMEND
1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A band, a song and an album:

PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Put this in your LJ so I can tell you what I think of you.
4. Post a picture of yourself.

1/9/06 08:47 pm - always such a disapointment

( ♥ x 52765463 )

12/27/05 12:52 pm

it feels like marie just died all over again

12/24/05 04:04 am

what's the weirdest gift you got this year?
mine was a family of rubber duckies that light up in the water

ok
now
go drink and drive

12/23/05 11:05 am - tagged by efehan

five weird things

a)i have never cut my own toe nails
b)i put make-up on before i go to bed incase i never wake up again
c)i smoked my dad’s bong last night
d)i can only drink orange juice if it comes out of a minute maid juice box
e)i love walking bare foot through the snow